"You CAN'T Make a Living as an Artist."

In a way I think I have been afraid, holding back and playing it small. This may come as a surprise to some of you, whether we are close friends or you simply follow me on social media. While running my business, building my home, adventuring the world and battling auto-immune diseases, there has been some fear holding me back.

As many of you know my business, Mesa Lifestyle is my micro-business that has served me well over the years as a malleable container to share my passions with the world. Having my own business allows me to continuously change my focus without any real ramifications to anyone else. Living as a creative being often means you have multiple ideas and projects firing at the same time, along with a strong desire to explore and express many interests and passions. This makes it extremely hard to stay the course with one singular project for a duration of time. You may have noticed my business reflecting this characteristic. My focus has shifted many times over the years from graphic design to yoga, painting, coaching, pottery, tiny house building, paddle boarding, off-grid living, photography, sustainability. permaculture, traveling, poetry, and organic gardening, to name a few. Though my focus may change my mission always remains the same, FOLLOW THE JOY!

But I am finally realizing that all of these offerings have been just skating the surface, not really getting down to the root of my purest joy. Behind all of these offerings, there is an artist crying out and dying to break free. She is tired of spreading herself too thin energetically. She is over figuring out ways to mask her artistry to make a living. She is sick of dulling her talent to make her work more marketable. Up until this point she has been afraid to give herself wholeheartedly to her art out of the fear of "not being able to make a living as an artist".

Inside there is nagging feeling of inadequacy and a repetitive voice telling me to play it safe. I've recently realized that this stems from experiencing difficulty in early childhood education, specifically with reading. If I could not read I was considered "dumb" so I faked it. I started drawing pictures to “WOW” people, tricking them to forget about my "inadequacy". When I paired that experience with a belief system that money is gross and it is the leading cause of the harm that poisons the natural world, I realize that I have created a story. And this story has created a subconscious blockage of success and financial abundance that I am now ready to evolve from.

One thing I know for sure is that I don't want to wake up as an 80 year old woman wishing I would have given myself wholeheartedly to my art. So here I go, 39 years ahead of time, choosing to step into my creative super power and trust that it will attract the abundance that I feel in my heart in the form of financial abundance.

Perhaps this doesn't sound like news to you because from your perspective I already look like a fearless artist, but to me this feels like it a righteous choice of freedom.

If you are somebody that thinks you “You CAN’T Make a Living as an Artist”,

WATCH ME!

I'm excited to say that I have some BIG stuff coming up and I can't wait to share it with you. Please stay tuned and keep me in mind for any professional creative services you my need.

Live Love & Stay Wild,
Mesa